
Falling In Love With Motherhood
An Intimate Gathering For Cultivating Presence, Permission & Play For Authentic Parenting
December 5th-December 8th 2025
Children between the ages of 2-13 are welcomed; only 2 children per mama are permitted!
Disclaimer:
Be sure to review my Policies and the FAQ at the bottom of this page before submitting any payments for this event.
What Made Us Fall Out of Love With Motherhood? Were You Ever In Love With It To Begin With?
While this may not be everyone’s story when it comes to motherhood, upon finding out that I was pregnant with my first born, I didn’t have a doubt in my mind that I was going to keep him and birth him. I never thought of abortion once; yet, as time went by, I began to feel beat down and isolated by single motherhood and as my personal needs and sense of identity began to wither, this title of “mother” began to feel purely obligatory…burdensome, even.
I also understand that many women had their children out of guilt, shame, pressure or even indecisiveness. And so for others, motherhood may have started out with like this instead of it evolving into it.
Together, alongside our children, we will be allowing them, maybe for the first time, to witness us as children; as the women we were before them. They will witness us mourn what we were and it is through this release that we will unveil the pathways to enjoying motherhood that are often clouded by survival mode, overwhelm, resentment and regret, even.
“What a mother sings to the cradle goes all the way down to the coffin.”
—Henry Ward Beecher
The Topics Our Itinerary Will Be Centered Around
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Your Intention, Spiritual Disposition & Circumstance Upon Conceiving
Who was the father of your child to you? Was he your best friend? Was it a fling? Were you in love? Was it toxic? Was it healthy? Was it forced? Was it easy? Were you a people pleaser? Were you selfish? Were you obsessed? Were you indifferent? Well, just like when you create a piece of art, the intention and governing dispositions of the 2 energies being combined at the onset of creation plays a huge role in how pregnancy, birth and parenting thereafter will take shape. It is here, that we discover what themes needs to be transmuted to ensure that it is evident that this sacred experience is and will continue to be a co-creation with God.
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Your Birth Story
Your birth story is a representation and reference point for the starting point of your creation process. Your self-awareness level, your self-advocacy level, your self-worth level and your intentions (or lack thereof) all played a key role in how your unique rite of passage unfolded for you. Nestled within the disappointment of intervention and birth trauma or in achieving your dream birth lies where you did or did not embody an aspect of yourself. So in telling our stories, we will aim to weave what may still be fragmented and give one another permission to stand in a level of spiritual authority that we may be hesitant to surrender to.
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Deadbeat vs. Deficit: The Father of Your Child, Safety & Inclusivity
Many of us don’t want to admit that we got into relationships and had children with men who were not emotionally available, were not inherently providers, were not raised to honor women and children, and may even unconsciously resent their mothers; which bleeds out onto women as a collective if not addressed. As much as women tend to use these qualities to bash men and lash out; the reality is that these qualities speak to spiritual deficit on both ends; and we, the life bearers were simply bad investors. As a result, we end up having to compensate through our birthing + parenting experiences in ways that we won’t enjoy until we learn radical acceptance.
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Projection: Separating Who Your Kid Is + What They Need From Who You Are/What You Needed As A Child
As most parents tend to do, once our children are born, we begin projecting things onto their unique experience based on what hurt us, based on what we did/didn’t have or based on the environmental circumstances we were at the mercy of. Without realizing, we strip them of their individuality; which comes with it’s own set of unique needs that end up going overlooked due to our ideas of what we imagine for them. And while these things may have good intentions; it may completely derail them spiritually; making their self-discovery journey later in life a plight of reclaiming what they were conditioned to believe they could not do.
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Disrespect vs. Unmet Emotional Needs
Some of us grew up in households where there was so much scarcity and poverty, that there was seemingly no room for things like gentle parenting and holding space for our children’s big emotions. More often than not, we want them to do as we say without any back talk so that our lives can “run smoothly”...only for it to later be at the expense of our children’s voice, confidence, emotional needs and in more extreme cases, the safety of others.
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Say What You’re Ashamed of Out Loud: Distinguishing Your Core Identity From The Identity of Being A Mother For Redemption of Authentic Self
We can’t teach our children emotional intelligence, patience, compassion and healthy discipline if we aren’t even willing to be honest with them about how we feel. Why are we hiding our emotions from them? Because we want them to see us as strong or indestructible? Well, the truth of the matter is...we are not always that. And when we start creating this inhuman facade of ourselves for our children to hold onto, they never get to meet the woman behind the super mom mask; better yet, they may unconsciously dehumanize her. The woman who is tired, resentful and regretful runs the risk of combusting under pressure and they may end up meeting her under even less desirable circumstances than the ones we were initially avoiding. Redemption and integration of the woman we were before motherhood plays an essential part in to being able to continue shamaning them through how to retain their own authenticity without having to perform or pretend; which is the starting point of how we raffle away our spiritual birthrights.
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Addressing Ego-Led Parenting: Re-Constructing How To Treat Your Child With Human Dignity By Using Them As A Mirror For Where You Can Do Better
Why do we feel like we hold the right to deny children of curiosity when they ask us “Why”? Don’t they deserve to understand and know? What is it with the slave-master esque authority that we want to have over our children as a means of “controlling/disciplining” them...only to act confused when they choose less than what they are worth in the form of lovers and friends much later in life. Give your inner-child a chance to bond with your literal child. Don’t shut them down because you were shut down. Don’t deny them of play because were too serious to the extent of denying you of play. Do what you would have wanted your mother to do. And change your schedule, way of operating and lifestyle as a whole, if needed, to make space for the healing of your inner-child and inevitably so, your child. Lay tyrannical parenthood to rest.
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Creative Ways To Alchemize Days When It Feels Boring, Too Strict, Like A Chore Or Obligatory
Parenthood tends to become chore-like and boring even, because we are too busy performing, judging ourselves and denying ourselves of permission to make mistakes, be our full self. We become agitated because we are tired of pretending. We grow resentful because we felt like we had to stop being who we actually are in order to be a “good mother”. You don’t have to be something you aren’t to be an amazing parent. These children chose us as we are and our authenticity serves as a blueprint and map to getting where they need to go. Performance and rigidity only derails their most authentic, fulfilling path. And the only one punishing and shaming you for not upholding this facade at the expense of play, permission and light heartedness is...you.
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No More Separation & Granted Permission: Giving Your Child + Your Inner-Child Permission To Cry, Share Transparent Thoughts/Feelings & Act Out Without Fear of Punishment
Why do we cry in private? Why don’t we let our children see us break down? Why don’t we stop pushing ourselves past our limits and be vulnerable enough with our children to show them that we cannot do it all. In fact, it is impossible and brutal even, to try and do it all; especially alone. And when we separate what’s realistic from what we have been groomed to portray, (even if it results in burn out), we teach our children to either do the same or expect the same from others. When they see you cry, that will show them that they have permission to cry. When we give them permission to feel anger without punishment, we get to feel anger without guilt/shame; which minimizes the chances of it being acted out or tainting their outlook on their own human experience.






Dates:
Friday, December 5th- Monday, December 8th, 2025
Number of Spots Left:
9 Spots Available
*Only 5 mothers & their children can stay in the main house and will have local transportation covered. The other 5 mothers & children must find their own lodging and meet us at the main house for activities and meals. If there is space, you can meet us at the main house to be transported, if needed.
Flights are not included, but lodging and local transportation is. You also have the option of handling your own lodging & transportation and paying a lower registration price.
You can pay in 2 installments directly through my site, but if you’d like to pay via Klarna, Afterpay or Affirm for lower installments than what are available, please use the links below!
Registration Steps:
Step 1: Choose A Package That Suits You.
First, you must decide if you’d like to register and have lodging + transportation included or not. Children between the ages of 1-10 are welcomed and there will be other mamas/hands on deck!
Step 2: Pay In Full, In 2 Installments Through My Site or Apply To Pay In Lower Installments Via Klarna, Affirm or After Pay.
Payment options are super flexible. Please bare in mind that you must get approved by Klarna, Affirm or Afterpay in order to pay lower installments. If you’d like to explore that option, please email me directly at NikholRei@gmail.com or use the links above. Also, be sure to review my Policies regarding Klarna, Affirm or Afterpay payments; as they are 3rd parties.
Step 3: Join Our Intimate Group Chat Where We Will Get To Know One Another & Allow Our Children To Bond.
In this group chat, I will share and pin local lodging/stays and shuttle options for those who are opting to take care of their own lodging and transportation. We will also use intimacy fostering intro prompts to prepare ourselves for the types of energies that will be present and how to ensure that we make it as safe, playful and authentic for one another as possible.
Step 4: Book Your Flight, Secure Lodging & Make Final Payment (If You Opted For Installments)!
Please be sure to book your flight ASAP. For those that choose to have lodging included, I will be securing a beautiful home that can house all of us (children included) but remember, if you opted for installments, please have them paid off no later than December 1st, 2025.
Meet Nikhol Rei
Karmic Accountant, Shadow Shaman, Wordsmith/Spell Worker & Spirit Charmer
The basis of my work is centered around attuning my clients to the quality of their own breath (spirits), building their pranic reserve (spiritual wealth), expanding their awareness around the spirits & entities they house + recognizing what invokes them and helping them descend back into the vessels/bodies that houses those spirits/entities. These pillars determine an individuals' ability to maintain spiritual checks & balances as to not disturb the balance of nature when they do commerce with people, places, things, ideas, beliefs and sentiments.
Over the years, I have become a profound source of psychospiritual insight because of my ability to detect and put words to what transpires in the subtle realms, as well as the subtle bodies; demystifying supernatural phenomena and making it practical. And after years of teaching people the mechanics of the karmic clearing process as it pertains to clearing bloodline karma and providing a slew of practical, comprehensive guides on complex, “metaphysical” topics such as timeline jumping, energy signatures, underworld work, shapeshifting, etc., I am ready to assist others with stepping out of the collective pain-body + victimhood and into becoming master shapeshifters & alchemists who are no longer at the mercy of the material world and its dense, time-bound illusion magick.
Event Location & Airport Details:
Puerto Viejo, Costa Rica | Arrive At Juan Santamaria Airport/SJO)
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Fly Into SJO Airport
You will be flying into SJO (Juan Santamaría International Airport) upon arrival to Costa Rica. Please make sure that your passport is up to date and that you are aware of the baggage policies of the airline you’ll be flying with. When you arrive to customs, they will ask you for an arrival address, which is in our private group chat that you’ll gain access to upon registering.
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Take A Taxi Or Shuttle To Denny's Near The Airport
When you get out of customs and step outside of the airport, you will see tons of taxi drivers and many of them will try to get you to pay $20 for a trip to Denny’s which is only 5 minutes away. Ubers are not allowed to drive into the airport, so do not try to book one. Instead, try to find a reasonably priced taxi driver.
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Hop On The Shuttle & Arrive To Puerto Viejo!
All participants will be arriving on Caribe Shuttle, which is a 5 hour or so ride from San Jose to Puerto Viejo. The shuttle has WiFi and also will stop for you to use the restroom and eat some yummy food half way through your trip. I will be in consistent contact until you arrive and will be there to pick you guys up and drop you off at the house!
Frequently Asked Questions & Policies
Disclaimer: Please read the information below before registering. If you register, it is under the assumption that you are clear on my policies and how my intimate gatherings work.
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Payments are non-refundable. However, if you'd like, you may transfer your monies paid to future events or offer your registration fee as a donation toward supporting the compound for women & children that I am building.
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If you are putting what you paid toward a future event, the discounted price you paid for Early Bird Pricing can only be put toward the price of the next event. You cannot attend the new event for the Early Bird ticket price; as it only serves as a credit toward registration.
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Yes; brunch and dinner with fresh coconut water and locally sourced fruits will be provided daily.
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Please disclose it within our Telegram chat when doing your intro prompts so that I can note it and tell the chef.
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There can be 2 children per parent at the gathering. On site childcare will also be provided and is included in your registration cost.